Brian

It’s been a while.
I am on a training.
See my newly installed lappy with Windows Vista.
Beautiful but confusing.

He could have just shut up, let it all flow.
But he spoke his mind, until he realized
no need to argue.
His words did not come out right.
It was flat, cold, and hurting.
He wishes he had done these hadn’t done those.
He is failling himself as a man.
the worst kind

Today is not my very favourite birthday:
- Could not sleep well last nite; and the day before, and the day before the day before, and the day before the day before the day before, and…
- My late-night-birthday contemplating brought me to the fact that my life was a little bit of “out of track” lately.
- This morning after upgrading my laptop to Windows Vista I lost most of my old emails. The IT team insisted I accidentally deleted the emails. Yeah, whatever. I just see them needing an excuse for their ignorance.
- Some tools won’t work on my newly installed vista.
- My AMEX card payment went so wrong, nowhere to find US $. And the rate against IDR were so high that I lost quite amount of money. The queuing was so long that I could not make it before 11am. I was late, another penalty bill will come, I think.
- This running project thing; I still could not find out what should I do to make it works. I am not used to feel relax until problem solved.
- It’s 10.02 pm and I am still here on my office desk
- Thank God I still have my friends. The surprise cake and the small party made it all a lot better. Thank you all

So the Australian Open 2009 dream final was happening. It was really the best for the last, Rafael Nadal vs. Roger Federer, another 5-set classic match.
Two great champions were at their best. But too bad somebody had to win and the other had to lose, that’s how the game works.
Congratulation to Rafael Nadal, this time he won.
Actually I wanted more Federer to win this grand slam, to equal Sampras’ record of 14 grand slam titles. But watching the level of Nadal’s game as well as Federer’s, I didn’t care anymore who would win. They are the “bestest”. Both of them are the true champion. As Nadal said in his acceptance speech, the time will come for Federer’s 14th title.

Nadal played a 5 hours game against Verdasco on Friday, and Federer got an easy winning a day before. Nadal should be the one who’s tired and exhausted, but the great champion never gave up. He fought every point so tenaciously that I worried something will break from his body. He outplayed Federer. Not that Federer played badly. Federer himself had also given his best game. He practiced every possible tennis shots on the theory perfectly; service, forehand, backhand, volley, half volley, lob, overhead. It’s a game anyway, somebody just had to lose.

On closing ceremony, the emotion had taken over Federer. He cried. Yeah, boys don’t cry but real men do cry. He couldn’t even say a word on his speech. His lips were trembling. He came to tears and needed some times before he calmed himself down and said a couple of words while sobbing.

And yes, I also almost came to tears with him; I am not ashamed to admit that. Every tear falls down for a reason. I cried a lot this week. I thought no more tears left, but the emotion had brought me there. These two humble role models deserved my tears. I can learn a lot from them even tough just over the media.
So congratulation gents, thanks for the lessons.